Holding a Mom's Grieving Heart
Christi's last Saturday in Ohio. August 26, 2006 at Aunt Marty's (24 days till death)
Taken a year ago with our favorite local journalist, Jill!
For whatever reason, I've experienced some of my most trying days over the past two weeks. I've also been extremely busy, but I continue to believe that "busy" helps! Shayla has been absolutely delightful and I am so blessed to be her mom. It's almost like she has been holding my heart and helping me breathe. (The photos I'd like to upload are not loading due to my computer problems. When that is fixed, thanks to my wonderful husband, I'll share them here.) As you will be able to tell from the pictures, we've been surrounded by great friends and family. Tomorrow will be our Open House - an event I've been scared about and dreading in recent weeks.
Open House was always such a great night for Christi - always so excited about going to school. I can't believe how well she was last year on Open House night and then how quickly she succumbed. I will never forget how we magically returned home from living in NYC in mid-August of 2003 and learned that Christi would be able to go to school for about six weeks after missing her entire first grade year. She had a very large incision healing on her back and so many sweet little girls and their mothers rushed up and hugged her during that Open House night and she just smiled and laughed and hugged them back while I cringed knowing how much physical pain it must have caused because the area was so tender and still under large bandages. That kiddo was an amazing little one! I miss her so, so much it hurts.