I've never been a mom to a 9 1/2 year old before, but with little Shayla - I am now! She had a nice little "party" at Grandma and Paw Paw's. I bought a little $3.00 cupcake dog she loved and we sang her a happy 1/2 birthday.
The second new discovery was disconfirmed by my good friend, Lori, who stopped over to visit yesterday. I had thought Claire told me out at the barn that their white horse, Smokey, the one Lori's daughter walked as the "Riderless Horse" at Christi's funeral, was also used for her horse drawn carriage/hearse. Well, I must have misunderstood my conversation with Claire, as Lori told me the hearse people brought their own horse so sorry I don't have a 2nd discovery like I thought. I guess I'll have to share a new "Christi Posted Picture" here instead. (hee hee) (PICTURE: end of August 2002. Later, Linda, the gal who always took the girls' pictures told me she didn't think Christi acted like her usual self this day. The photos came out great, but she didn't have her usual spunk. I really did not notice anything wrong. By the end of the next week, she was in the hospital.)
(PIC: Shayla's last half birthday with Christi, 7 1/2, August 12, 2006)
(PIC: What started it all: Christi's 5 1/2 birthday. I was so afraid she wouldn't see "Six" that we made her 5 1/2 special!) Stress is high here! I'm certain my upcoming exams are playing a huge role; however, what I've tried to avoid thinking about all summer really kicked in last night. I will have to teach Christi's classmates and not her. I cried myself to sleep. I know I'll do it and it'll be fine, I guess I am just going to have to "suck it up". (The same exact thing I told Christi to do as a five year old when she complained before her very first day of school that she didn't feel well. Shayne was out of town and I had no idea there was a tumor in her little body.) I'd always wanted to be her school teacher; this year should have been my chance as she would have been in the 7th grade. Ergh!
Shayla, you will never know the joy you bring us - thank God for you!